- Reason: Cosmetic
- Ethnicity: White / Caucasian
- State / Region: Indiana
- Country: United States
- Listed: August 31, 2018 12:28 am
- Expires: 15 days, 5 hours
In my mid twenties, I gained a significant amount of weight before I even got pregnant with my son. While pregnant, I was hyper amniotic (excess amniotic fluid) and basically ballooned my entire lower abdomen. After the emergency cesarean birth of my 9lb, 1oz son, I weighed around 280lbs.
I finally managed to drop the weight after 1.5 years of breastfeeding. For some reason, I was entirely unable to lose weight until after weaning. I dropped nearly 120lbs within a year, and due to that rapid loss (as well as a difficult and cumbersome pregnancy) I have sustained a fair amount of excess skin on my lower belly.
It’s caused me severe body dysmorphia, to the point where I have cried and screamed in the mirror more times than I can count. I have been and am currently in therapy to treat my body dysmorphia, but I strongly feel that altering this part of myself will be the final step in feeling like I own my body again. My therapist has agreed that surgery to repair the damage, if I could afford it, would positively impact my body image. In the meantime we work together to maintain a positive and healthy body outlook.
I think of myself as a positive person, especially body positive and accepting, but this is something I have struggled with for 5 years of my life. I’ve tried everything from oils and creams to wraps and brushes. There’s just too much extra skin, nothing short of a surgical procedure is going to repair it. All I want is to feel normal. I don’t care if I don’t feel like the baddest bitch in the world, I don’t need that. All I need is to feel neutral, because it’s better than how I feel now.
Please give what you can, every penny is greatly appreciated.