- Reason: Cosmetic
- Ethnicity: Latino / Hispanic
- State / Region: London
- Country: United Kingdom
- Listed: February 11, 2017 5:01 pm
- Expires: 13 days, 7 hours
I had to throw in the towel, get real & admit to myself this morning that i have lost my looks.
I took a selfie & I looked horrible. Absolutely dreadful.
I have patiently endured an acrimonious divorce, child custody battle, illness, financial ruin, extreme stress, anxiety, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts, periods of unemployment-sometimes thru discrimination & now the final straw- Homelessness.
I thought I could continue fooling myself, believing I still look like I did before the hell & chaos started.
I did get compliments until one day, 5yrs ago, I had to read an email full of cruel & nasty comments from a guy I dated only once & refused to see again.
The same thing happened again shortly after, with a different guy & i’ve since lost my confidence.
I haven’t socialised or gone on a date since & i’m finding myself becoming more & more isolated.
I am educated & articulate but that alone is sadly not enough.
I have so many unfulfilled dreams & plans for myself as well as helping others struck by unemployment & homelessness, which I cannot realise due to my lack of confidence & need to hide myself away.
Lest my looks be judged harshly yet again, this time by the public.
The rest of my body is in relatively good shape as I do try to stay as fit as I can (being a former fitness fanatic) despite joint pain from rheumatism & suspected arthritis.
I will provide you with (after surgery) photos as well any, within reason, you would like to see. So feel free to ask.
I don’t expect that much sympathy as that’s the way of the world. I’m under no illusions. Still I have met a lot of genuinely kind people from all backgrounds in my time. Therefore I know that world isn’t populated solely by mean, bitter & nasty folk.
Please restore my faith in humans & the kindness of the human spirit. I never thought I would resort to asking a complete stranger for help like this.
Please help me get back my confidence.